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Thursday, August 7th, 2008
8:26 pm - End of Summer, or What There Was of It.
Well, next Sunday I go back to school! Summer went by extremely uneventfully. I saw my Elton John concert, which was AMAZING, and I went to the Red Sox game, which was equally AMAZING! We had box seats for the game, sat eight rows behind the third base line. It was Jason Bay's first game, and he scored the two runs the Sox got in 12 innings. It was pretty exciting!

Oh! The other exciting thing I did this summer was go to the North American Premier of The Dark Knight. It was right in Montpelier! No celebs there, but totally worth it to see it a week before everyone else I know!

Other than that, NOTHING happened this summer! I saw Madalyn on weekends (always the highlight of my week), started excercising more and sat at home watching Friends, movies, The Three Stooges and cartoons. I saw Ryan a grand total of three, four times, might see him one more if he's not too busy. Justin and I both were so busy with work that I got to see him twice, for a grand total of, like, half an hour, so that sorta sucked. We had planned to hang a lot this summer. Guess that fell through.

So, to sum it up, I spent most of my summer working, bored, depressed and, on rare occasions, in a really damn good mood!. I can't wait to get back to school.

current mood: tired

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Friday, November 16th, 2007
9:43 am - Meme
Image search the following, take from 1st page ::

1. Age next birthday

2. Place you want to travel to

3. Fave place

4. Fave object

5. Fave food

6. Fave animal

7. Fave color

8. Town where you were born

9. Town where you live now (I'm going w/ where my school is by default)

10. Name of past pet

11. 1st name of a past love ( i went with current cause it was more fun)

12. Best Friends Nickname

13. nickname/ screen name

14. First name

15. Middle name

16. Last name

17. A bad habit you have

18. your first job

19. Your grandmothers name (i'm gonna do both )

20. Your College Major

current mood: bouncy

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Friday, February 9th, 2007
1:10 am - Down With the Sickness
So first my room mate got sick, then Madalyn got sick, and now all three of us are sick. I hurt all over, I'm coughing, and I'm drained. Damn sickness.

So the whole thing about my job is really screwed up. Apparently I never officially got hired by CES. What happened was I was under the impression I had a job when they told me to go see someone in the SA office about more details. I just thought since the SA organizes all the events on campus, that she had more details than the people in CES. Turns out, I haven't been officially hired by CES and that I was working through the SA office instead. On top of that, it looks like the SA office doesn't have enough money to pay me for my work. I have to get this all straightened out quick. I need to go to CES and be like "so am I going to get a job?" and then figure out if I did all that work for nothing.

Also, there is no heat in my room. Hasn't been since last week even though they've come to "fix" it two or three times.

current mood: sick

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Friday, February 2nd, 2007
6:46 pm - New Job
Thanks to my wonderful girlfriend putting in a good word for me, I now have a job. I work for Conference and Event Services, which is just setting up various activities around campus. I just got done my first shift. Tonight's assignment: Help the laser tag guys set up their equipment, take a break, go back to help them "test" their equipment (which means the people who got to help set up get to play before anyone else), take a break (maybe play some more if the line doesn't get wicked long), then go back at midnight to help them tear down. I must say, this is a great start for a new job.

current mood: excited

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Friday, January 5th, 2007
3:44 pm - When All Else Fails, Post a Blog
Wow, I am so bored. I've done nothing today. I slept til noon, went downstairs, ate lunch, watched some tv with my brother for a long time, and I've been wandering around for a while with nothing to do but listen to my mother harp on me about applying for scholarships. I don't know why I'd apply for scholarships, anyway. I never get them. And applying is such a pain. On top of the sheet you have to fill out, they all require stupid essays like "what are your career plans" or "how do you intend to help the world." And then, after you've written the essay, you have to get two letters of recomendation. I'm not close enough to ANY teachers at JSC to ask them for a recomendation. It's not like at BFA when I had the same teachers all the time and saw them all every day and got close to them. My college professors are just kind of there to me.

Holy crap, I can't believe there are still two whole weeks until school starts again. Why in HELL did they have to make vacation so long? It's ridiculous.

Tomorrow will mark Madalyn and I's third month together! They've been three fabulous months, if you ask me!

This weekend I need to start going to bed early so I'll be ready come Sunday night when I have to go to bed at like 10:30 so I can wake up at five on Monday to go to work.

I just need to hang in there for 16 more days. Wow. That seems like forever right now.

current mood: restless

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Monday, January 1st, 2007
6:47 pm - Tired
Well, it's now 2007. My New Year's Eve was uneventful for the most part. Madalyn came over and we played games until mindnight when we all said Happy New Year, then hung out for a little while and then went to bed.

And when I say "went to bed" I mean "I tossed and turned all damn night long. I got maybe three hours of sleep. The wind and rain up here last night was terrible, and because of how my room is positioned, my room is the loudest when stuff like that happens. So I was up all night tossing and turning and trying to sleep over the sound, but I've never really been able to sleep well through that specific kind of noise.

So now I'm wicked tired. Go figure.

I'm also really ready to go back to school. I've been through a lot of criticism since I've been home and everyone's been getting moody and I just don't really like being here right now.

current mood: exhausted

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Friday, December 29th, 2006
12:59 pm - The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly
Okay, so the good news is this: I quit Hannaford today! I no longer have a job that I hate working for a person that I hate!

The bad news is this: I quit Hannaford today. I am now broke and jobless and have no idea where I'm going to get a job now.

The Ugly is this: My mom knows what happened to get me no hours at Hannaford and she's pissed 'cause she thinks I have a temper, an attitude and that I'm irresponisble because I quit there with no other job possibilites.

Shit, this is going to be an interesting time period for me.

current mood: Mixed

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Friday, December 22nd, 2006
7:34 pm - Happy Holiweight!
Wow, I'm going to gain a ton of weight. There are so many good things to eat here right now: three kinds of fudge, peanutbutter balls, coconut balls, three kinds of cookies, and peppermint bark. I'm eating more junk here than at school. But come on, it's Christmas! Here I am trying to lose weight and the Christmas goodies come out. Darn it.

Oh well, I still love Christmas! Just over two days now!

current mood: full

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Sunday, December 17th, 2006
11:46 pm
The Emo Song!

Whooooa, I'm cutting myself in the dark
And I don't know why I'm doing it.
My life is great in my great big house
With all of my parents money
And all my expensive things

Whoooa, the blood is dripping
Down to the floor from my blade
As I cry alone in the dark

My life sucks and my parents are rich
I have everything anyone could want
And I'm seventeen-years-old.
But for some reason my life is a bitch
Whooooooa I'm Emo!

I wear tight girl pants
And little girl shirts, too
I wear black nail polish
And dye my hair black, too
Crying is my hobby,
And my favorite band is Panic at the Disco



So go ahead and laugh,
You don't know what it's like
To be a spoiled rich kid
My life is so tough
And I just don't know
What to do with my happy home life



(spoken in the background) "Hey man, wanna go cut 'cause my dad won't let me borrow the Jag?" "hell, yeah, man, sounds great." (sounds of crying) "I can't believe that fucker only let me have $200 to go shopping with today…"

current mood: amused

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2:06 am - Something to knock me down
I've been riding so high the past few months on happiness from being with Madalyn that I didn't think anything would knock me down.

Well, something did. I made a mistake and now I'm being called on it. There's nothing worse for me than knowing I let someone down, and I let a couple people down. Granted, they're not friends of mine, but they're still people who matter. In doing something I've preached against, making your bad day other people's bad day, I said some things that were hurtful and uncalled for, and the people affected found out. Now I'm sitting here saying to myself "IDIOT." I can't STAND knowing I let someone down, and it's bugging me right now.

No sleep for Matt for a while tonight.

current mood: discontent

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Saturday, December 16th, 2006
1:14 am - Various
Oddly enough, I've been thinking a lot about the planet lately and becoming very earth concious. I never used to be like this, but lately the idea of what's going to happen to our planet in my life-time scares me. I'm changing a little bit in this regard. Maybe this is a good thing.

Finals week starts next week. Luckily, I only have one real test! Hurray! I have a paper due for Brit. Lit. that's only a couple pages long, I have to answer 8 question in a take-home final for Poli. Sci., my Fiction Workshop teacher told us to not even bother showing up, and I have to take the actual History test. Easy enough. It feels really good. I'm actually satisfied with this semester. I think I did well. At least, I HOPE I did well or my ass is grass.

I've been sort of writing lyrics to a song mocking Emo kids and Emo music. As soon as it's done, I plan to post it here.

Madalyn and I are going out and about tomorrow. We're going to Burlington, then to my house, then around to look at Christmas lights. It'll be nice to take a venture off campus for a while.

Still no snow. I have a feeling it's going to be another brownish-green Christmas.

Speaking of Christmas, it's only 8 days away! I'm excited!

current mood: weird

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Thursday, December 14th, 2006
5:41 pm - An Angry Letter to the USA and the World at Large
Dear Citizens of the World,

Smarten up! Because of you, the people of the world, the earth is dying slowly. The temperature of the world is increasing because of your dependence on machines that require fuel that emit gasses into the atmosphere that trap heat on the planet. Do you have any idea what this is doing to the planet?

A recent study shows that due to global warming, the ice cap at the North Pole will be gone within the next 30 years. This means that all the sea levels in the world will rise. This is not a good thing. "So what?" you say "Who cares?" you ask. I care. There are entire species of animals that thrive in the arctic and depend on it to live. You're KILLING these poor creatures, creatures that probably have more right to live than we do because they were here first.

Not only that, you're affecting life right now as we speak. There's hardly ANY winter anymore. Your'e destroying tons of industries: skiing, snowboarding, ice-fishing, snowshoeing, sledding, and various other things. Many places across the United States and other parts of the world depend on these things as a major source of income, and you're destroying that by poisoning the planet with your heat-trapping gasses.

Now, I'm just as guilty as driving a car as anybody else, but we need to find better ways to get around and preserve our planet. It's NOT too late. Walk, bike, use electric cars, SOMETHING, to slow this process down. Save our winters, save the arctic. This whole thing is getting way out of control and it's because of ignorance and laziness. But it was 50 degrees today, December 14th, where I live, a place that, by rights, should be 30 degrees at most and burried in snow. This is neither natural or healthy.

Get it together, world, or there might not be a world left.

Thank you.

current mood: angry

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5:28 pm - An Angry Letter to God
Dear God,

What exactly is the deal, anyway? It's December now and yet we have only have two real snows. Neither of these snows have stayed. Today was December 14th and it was 50 degrees outside. The two snows that you have allowed to fall have all gone away because the temperature keeps getting above 40 degrees. Why is that? I mean, I remember when I was a kid there'd be at least two feet of snow on the ground by now and there'd be more on the way. I enjoy a nice white Christmas. That doesn't seem to happen anymore. Now I know you might say it's because of Global Warming and that might be partly true, but you're God! You can make it snow Mexico if you want! Is it too much to ask that we get a good three or four feet of snow that we can have an old fashioned white Christmas?

It's not only a white Christmas that I want, either. I have a pair of snowshoes in my basement that I've only been able to use twice since I got them because there hasn't been any snow. I'm DYING to use them! I love to snow shoe, but how can I do it without any snow? And look at all the businesses you're hurting. The ski industry is suffering, the snow mobile industry is suffering and a bunch of other winter things. Please. I don't think snow is too much to ask for. It's December, it's time for snow. It's not like I'm asking for a million dollars or to be able to fly, I just want a few feet of snow. Thank you.

current mood: angry

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Monday, December 11th, 2006
7:01 am - Limbo
Wow...I'm in that weird space between feeling sleepy and feeling awake. I have no idea what I want to do at this point. It's a little loud to sleep, but at the same time, I feel like maybe I should. It's like being in limbo.

So we got our family Christmas tree yesterday and decorated it today. It looks BEAUTIFUL! I LOVE Christmas trees! When I have the spare time when I go home, I'm just going to turn on the tree lights and sit in the dark and look at the tree.

I'm pissed! I got Madalyn a gorgeous cross for Christmas and I gave it to her early because I was so excited for her to see it and she's been wearing it for a week or two and she got in the shower today and it FUCKING BROKE! Luckily she saved it from the drain, but the chain FUCKING BROKE. The cross itself is okay, but the chain is busted so she can't wear it. And I've misplaced the receipt, so I can't prove I bought it to get my money back. It upsets me greatly because she loved it so much and I was so happy to see she liked it.

current mood: thirsty

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Friday, December 8th, 2006
1:17 am - Randy Quaid's Schlong
Okay, the weirdest thing happened tonight. I was watching Christmas Vacation with Madalyn, and there's this one scene where Randy Quaid's character is wearing really tight pants. Now, I've never really paid attention to his outfit before, just the dialogue in the scene and the massive amount of dogfood Quaid is buying. Anyway, Madalyn says to me "I'm gonna buy you a pair of tight pants like Randy Quaid's so your massive package can show, too." and I'm like "what?" and I look at the tv and I notice, much to my shock, that in his pants, Randy Quaid's package is showing. And not only is is showing, but you can tell that his dick is really big because it tucked down into his pant legs. Well, it's like one of those optical illusion pictures, once you see the hidden object, you can't unsee it. So I spent the next few minutes trying NOT to focus on the fact that Randy Quaid's huge schlong was staring at me. It didn't help that he actually adjusted the thing! It was ridiculous!

Anyway, I thought I'd share that little story with everyone. I'm off to play in the snow with Madalyn.

current mood: shocked

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Thursday, December 7th, 2006
7:03 pm - A little, pointless Meme
1. Put your media player of choice on shuffle
2. Post a line or two from the first 15 songs that come up. Even the embarrassing ones.
3. Have people guess which songs the lyrics are from.

1. I'm looking for a miricle man/that tells me no lies/ I'm looking for a miricle man/who's not in disguise

2. Slipping through the trees/strangleing the breeze/dead I am the sky/watching angels cry/while they slowly turn/conquring the worm

3. Give me a word/give me a sign/show me where to love/ but tell me what will I find?

4. Degenerate into something, fool/we just got tired of doing what you told us to do/ that's the breaks boy/ yeah, that's the breaks little man/ break it down

5. And the label said take two for the pain/so now I medicate my brain/and the conflict rubs against my brain/but I cannot flush it down the drain/we are so hopless/we are so hopelessly in love

6. If I had a day that I could give you/I'd give to you a day just like today/and if I had a song that I could sing for you/I'd sing a song to make you feel this way

7. See the broken man torn and twisted in grief/screaming to the sky in pain in disbelief/how could it be that any man could allow this?/living in the filth of faded innocence

8. You can tourture me with Donnie and Marie/you can play some Barry Manalow/or you can play some schlock like New Kids on the Block/or any Village People song you know

9. Wake me up in the morning glory/hanging straight your lies and stories/how do you mark your territory

10. Pretty woman walking down the street/pretty woman, the kind I like to meet

11. So put your hands down my pants and I bet you'll feel nuts/yes I'm Siskle, yes I'm Ebert and you're getting two thumbs up/you've had enough of two hand touch/you want it rough

12. He was born in the Bitterroot Valley/in the early morning rain/the wild geese over the water/headed north and home again

13. You have come here/in pursuit of your deepest urge/in pursuit of that wish until now which has been silent

14. See those real-live calloused fingers/wrapped around those guitar strings/kiss the lips where hurt has lingered/it breaks your heart to hear them sing

15. In case you forgot or fell off/I'm still hot, knock your shell off/my money's stacked fat/plus I can't turn the swell off.

current mood: bored

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Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
6:34 pm - I feel...
...pretty darn good today. There's snow on the ground and it finally feels like winter. All I ask is for a bit more so I can break out my snowshoes.

As of tomorrow, Madalyn and I will have been going out for two months. Two WONDERFUL months. I'm so crazy about her.

After a long bout of writer's block, I finally turned out a story that I'm really happy with for my fiction workshop. I'm proud of myself.

Just thought I should post the things I'm feeling good about. More later, probably.

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
8:44 pm - I always feel.....
....like I should be writing in here. I always feel like I have something that's worth writing down, but then I sit down here and realize that I don't really have all that much to say.

Last night I had a rather interesting little adventure. Travis, Yanni and Joe Collier were going to Price Chopper and McDonald's and I asked if I could hop in. Travis responded "if you think you can fit with Joe in the back of my truck." I, not having a clue as to the actual size of Travis's truck go "oh yeah, no problem." Well, when Joe and I actually managed to squeeze into the back, it was a very tight fit. Just barely managed to make it there and back without dying. Lol. That's an exageration, but you know what I mean.

Oh, in other interesting news, Noel is moving out of my room next semester and Jon Brooks is moving in. This is a rather exciting prospect.

Nothing much else is going on. I'm ready for the semester to be over. I'm tired of the classes I'm in. I'm especially tired of Winkelman, Silver and Sandy Baird. Wow, that's all but one of my teachers.

Man I'm bored. And the only thing going on, as usual, is Super Smash Brothers. I can't wait until Noel gets the Wii and we retire this stupid game.

I wish Madalyn wasn't at work. At least then I'd have someone to talk to who would say more than "OH YEAH! I JUST PWND YOU! DIE JIGGLYPUFF!"

current mood: bored

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Saturday, November 25th, 2006
4:53 am
My Interests Collage!Collapse )
Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424

current mood: bored

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Friday, November 24th, 2006
2:30 am - Thanksgiving
In accordance to the tradition to which I have become accustomed, I sat back today after I had eaten my big Thanksgiving meal and thought about what I am thankful for. Here's what I came up with:

Madalyn: Since I have met her, Madalyn has been the light of my life. Being away from her for the past few days has let me know just how much she really means to me because I'm having such a hard time getting through a day without her. She's there for me no matter what, she makes me feel loved, appreciated and important. I love you, baby.

Friends: This year I have re-evaluated my definition of what I classify as a real friend. I was surprised to fine that my new definition cuts out a lot of people. Granted, this doesn't mean that I don't have a lot of friends, but it means that I have few Friends (note the difference). This year I am very thankful for my Friends, those people who I surround myself with who are ALWAYS there for me. Some people have become Friends, some have been demoted to friends, but it those who I call Friend who are the most important people to me because they are my support when I fall from any terrible situation.

Family: They drive me crazy most of the time, but I'd be getting nowhere without them.

Health: None of the above would be worth much if I wasn't in the good health that I am.

Comfort: Granted, my family isn't rich, but we're not destitute, and for that I'm thankful.

Now, the one thing I am NOT thankful for is that I have to go to work tomorrow at 8:15. I DO NOT want to go back to that fucking hell hole!

current mood: thankful

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